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HOLIDAYSSSSSSSSSSSSSS

2007-10-29T10:46:00.000-07:00

YIPEEEEEEEEEEEEE!
Holis are here again!Whooooohooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!

ANYWAY!I've got so many plans....just don't know how to put it down.....
List of things I want to do:
-learn guitar
-hanging out with jiko-rians
-hanging out with (extended) family members. (its been a long while!!)
-hanging out with church friends
-BEN 'N' JERRY! (where are you?! >:( )
-go out for work (any recommendations???)
-outing with cell group
-YOUTH CAMPPPPP!!!!
-band? (sian.)
-tutoring classes with my big brother. (O-M-G..)
-staying with my grandmother. (poor her...)
-S.L.E.E.P.!!!

Yay.I hope that'll be more events coming in... Holidays would be boring if you were to stay 24/7 without having much fun!! HEH HEH.
Quite boring to be at home eh?
No computer...... No homework...... No friends..... No fun.......
Things seem to become black and white.....
Someone please colour my life back!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! >.<

Okays.
I'm getting sleepy right now.... look at the time!
Thanks to all of u for visiting my blog! :)
CIAO!

remember?those days....

2007-10-11T06:57:00.000-07:00

Wow...I feel like going back to those days...

I remembered last year...
Many crazy things happened in New Town.
We were like so innocent...
One go crazy= All goes bonkers together!
But I was very quiet though....
That's nothing much lah...right? So long as you're happy!

But when things changed....
You'll want them back....
haha. So nostalgic. So emo.

I wished that I would be that innocent innocent girl back then...
So quiet....so....erm....sweet? heh heh!!
People love you easily....!
But, now.... people would think you're bad....
Cause you've became so....NOISY.haha. So easily over-reacted. So rebellious.
People easily put on bad impressions on you. Am I right?
I got that wherever I go, to be very suprised I get that in church at times too!
Ha-ha.
w-h-a-t-e-v-e-r they think of me is not important.
Some may tell me that.....
But......when things changed you'll want them back.
I really would want that back.

But I thought- Why not I'll continue the way I am now?
Even though many people would hate me, the way I am now.
But that's okay.
I'll learn!!! HEHE!
I'll learn and become someone that's....
Erm,like what they usually say, BETTER!
There's no way I should turn back...
I managed to step out from my emotional walls....
I should continue to be brave! ^_^

Heh heh. I sound so old like auntie.
Anyways.... that's the nostalgia coming to my emo mind.
To happy friends out there!
Be S-T-R-O-N-G! =)

Aiya. Sian. Nothing to do.
That's why I wrote this. haha
Hope this helped.....!!!
Ciao~

EXAMexamEXAM!!!

2007-10-10T09:16:00.000-07:00

Yay!I changed my blog skin.

My worst nightmare is over!!!History is over!!! YAYYY!!!
History is my worst nightmare to me because- Need to write a whole lot of stuffs within 2hours,hurting your poor little fingers. Need to memorise ALOT and ALOT! Need to please the teacher with all the crappy level of answers.
SIAN!
Thank God it's gone now.PHEW!
Only that there's the second nightmare to all- RESULT.

There's a paper for tomorrow though.Maths paper 2.
It's quite okay. But,I'm scared.
Got GRAPHS to draw........!!

Yay! We could FINALLY move back to Jurong West!
Well, like some people may say: When you win some, you may have lost another.
I won't be able to see some of my friends....
But, that's all okay! Because we're still under the same leader haha.
Almost everyone in WYZ rejoiced. lols.
Most of us lived in the west... So reasonable lah hor?

So long don't have WYZ event.....Never mind.....

EMERGE IS GONE!!!AHHHHHHH!!! NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
What about all the crazy events I want to join net year....SOB!
But, all the adults became so happy...LOL!
That Asia conference ar....How are they going to divide the adults....?
Erm....will there still be South??O_O haha.
Oh yea, Benni Hinn's gonna come!!!
Weeheeeeeeeee,
I guess I'll have to change my philosophical statement just now into...
COMPROMISE a little,gain....
ALOT!!!!!!!

Okay,I'll update about my results....
ALL the best to everyone!!!
Erm,plus me?:)
Ciao~

Holidays.............................

2007-09-06T01:05:00.000-07:00

Don't care about my previous post lah...
very negative...
DONT CARE ARH!!
and thanks most to kai mei and CA for being there for me! :)

Quite a number of days ago.........
There's the Live Your Dream event and So You Think You Can Sing in my church.
Live Your Dream
It was very scary at first....cause I acted on stage...
At first I thought I could not act lols...
But was very shocked.....cause I did it in the end!
Was really glad lah....
And even though my cluster didn't win.
I was still glad... Cause our drama was EXTREMELY hilarious!!
Haha!!!
Anyway, to encourage people out there....
You may think you can't do some things.... Actually no de!! 'Cause EVERYONE can do it.... If you try and put your heart to it....:)
So You Think You Can Sing
Correct, I participated...
Was VERY VERY scary!!
The third audition I went to....
and the SCARIEST so far!!!
It sounds like nothing much...
But if you think about it.... My church is big.... And had tons and tons of talented singers... You'll totally freak out! And I'm going to compete against people f ALL ages- it's open category!
Of course I would freak out!
....
Luckily...
It wasn't so bad as I thought in the end....HEHE...
but I'm very sure I would not get into the finals.... including the fact that there were so many talents....!
Well, never mind... I managed to get hold of myself in the end anyways..^^
So, it's ALL okay!!!

It's holiday week....and there's nothing much to do...
Got band....Got IPW....Got many things lah...but nothing is as interesting as the actual schools days!! And the weekends!!! suddenly missed those things....
HAHA....

*One of the qoutes from my drama: "To all our friends out there, if you dream it, you'll achieve it."By the lead role.

RE-surrection

2007-08-23T07:08:00.000-07:00

I felt so sad last time...
Cause...I heard a very sad news....
haix.

There many emotional walls in me...
Due to all the boundaries that I had...
To tell everyone the truth, I wasn't anybody near great.
I'm like, what people say, nothing.
Even if I were ever entrusted with a great task...
It would be gone from me.

I really hate that part of me.
That uselessness.
I'm not popular. Not out-going. Not confident. Not THAT pretty.
I'm like what people think as- the average one.

Well, its all okay...
life goes on.

I'm still myself.
I'm NG JING YUAN.
Not somebody else.
Even if anybody hates me... I AM still me.
Even when the world come crushing down.... I could forget about everything...
But, I would never want to forget about the time when I got my self-actualisation.
Being yourself, without thinking about other's discrimination, is one of the greatest joy one could ever had.
That's what HE has told me. That's what Joyce said.
Even if I'm nothing now.....
I would still fight to be better and better....
Even if I would fall down again....I could get up again!
And help to pull people who fell too.
Even if I'm at my worse.

I know.

I could.

Fight.

Again.

*twist*

YaWnZZZZ

2007-08-10T11:36:00.002-07:00

Wow....it's so late le....
yet....i'm still up! hehe...
today's nthg much....
jus a bunch of emotions.....
tired...
sian...
painfulll!!!(as in physically)
feel like rotting....
well...i hope i won't decompose badly...haha....
juscame up to tellpeople out there...
if you feel like rotting in the same way i do...
don't do that kay.....you'll regret for sure....!
for me ar....i got holiday....so i've got an excuse...
if you don't have....or it's a crappy one....then go and do something!
=D

long time no see..

2007-08-06T09:12:00.000-07:00

Wowwie.... back from a long time.
Anyways, I've been doing alot of craps lately.
Studying. Complaining. Eating. Toileting. Sleeping. Napping. Friendstering. ETC ETC..
Weekdays are..well...boring to me!
Of course school is fun!! Erm.... for sometimes though...
But weekends rock even more!! ^^
There's cell group in the sat mornings..
My cell grop not very very enthu one larh! But still...it's fun to be with them...don't know why... Maybe because of....her? HEHE!
Then later on there is music school.It's very fun there!Better than school at times! :)
Sundays rock most!
There is ushering and church!! yay~
Ushering is not boring,for your info.I don't know why but I just love to usher!!
Then the people in church are nice...
Though....you'll still have problems with some of them...
Like.... gossips....backstabbing...ignoring each other for funny funny reasons.
But...there is one factor that is controlling these situations... Making church a better place!
And oh ya, to be frank.. i think i like the senior senior people in my church ALOT! Cause, there have the maturity there...
They wouldn't backstab or gossip...more or less more trustworthy...
You can still find people who are very good at my age. People from P.O.S....and stuffs. But i should really say something about MERRIEN and SUNTHARI because... They're great people!I'm sure they'll accomplish something great in the future! Of course,the others can too!!:DD
And ya...church is a fun place to be...who says it'll be boring??hahas.Sad that it has only got to be on one day.....but that's okay...cause there's still.......

Of course, I still gotta talk about school! School is as usual... backstab... Gossip all around... Reputation battles... steadies...
Life can have more colours actually...
HEHEHEEEEEEEEE...

EMO EMO ME!

2007-06-23T08:05:00.000-07:00

I admit.
I'm an emo-er!
hai. I felt so sad lah.
Hope it's my sensitivity.
Really hope it is!
Anyway. I don't like him... never... will not one...
I only ask cause Í felt weird, why is it like that...
Only that... Not because I like him okay!!
Nowadays, I kept emo-ing.
Got so many things that I''m so sad about. haix.
Anyways... Wish the irritating me good luck!
the always crazy..
made so many people irritated de me...
Think I should remain quiet...
Like that I will be JUST fine!! =)

For more of P.O.S

2007-06-17T02:42:00.000-07:00

AHH!
Really sorry Merrien for not posting a comment! Sorry Sorry!
I shall contirbute morre triibutos!

Merrien- Funny and bright girl in POS. Makes people laugh lol. Think if not for you, I won't improve on anything in P.O.S. Really thank you!! Great dancer out there, yea? Keep on shining for God in your dance! See you in talentime dance someday!! =)

Erm, forgot who else I need to write to.... hmmm.... next time I update lah! haha.
More funny things that happened...

I personally think South can join drama ministry... Especially the funny ex and current tanglinians. They very funny lah! Think without them South is nothing.. Shannen's very funny. She keeps on trying her very best to entertain Sandy and I with jokes. It was fun lah. Like how Bryant and Seraphina told us those IQ "tests". LOL

Love T/RP alot!!! Even though they didn't get any placing for overall or win first for POS... they still cheered very loudly for a second place in PoS!! They're very on fire! A real pity my second brother didn't join.... Then we're champions lah.... But not proud at all!! We gave three cheers to them....hahas. Guess South should be more like them next time... hahs...

Was really burdened for next year... Don't know who'll join us next year... And majority of Irene's cell members (which are tanglinians) are leaving... without them we cannot make it de.. Many seniors are leaving us... And Hensa is leaving too... We'll have new leaders... But will we make it with them? Not say they're bad but... seniors are leaving le... Very worried if they can make it or not...

wish that South will be as united as `06... Wish that South will be as on fire as T/RP... Wish that South willl

Win again.

Parade Of Schools

2007-06-09T09:09:00.001-07:00

HAHA! I'm back!
Been busy right?
Haha. I went to parade of schools! IT's very fun haha!
Parade of Schools is an event from my church. Very fun lah!
Let me tribute to some of them!! =)

Sunthari- Thanks alot for being there for me when I'm so emo all the time! haha. Seriosly thank you. If not for you, my days in P.O.S might be misery... haha!

Glory- Thanks alot for your encouragement in P.O.S. Haha. Pro-dancer! Really sexy moves you've got! heh heh! Thank you!

An lynn-My dear!Haha. Your a great flyer yea? Your very hyper in P.O.S and made me hyper also!! Banana rocks!

Claudia-Thanks alot for your support in P.O.S! Even though we didn't talk much lah.. But hope we'll have space to talk more to each other! =) Your really funny!! haha.

Chloe- My partner! haha. It was so funny to partner you! And especially the "hah" thing! haha. Really made me laugh lots!

Genevieve- What the bonk! Your very great in your performance! heh heh! jellyfish is jelly-ish but yet has it's own advantages lah! haha =)

Sandy- Hey! The methodist girl! haha. You never failed to inspire me sometimes. A real great sister in our P.O.S =) haha! Great dancer...yea?

Sing Xuan- My senpai! =) thank you alot for trying your very best to monitor my dance steps! Your so cute think all of us want to pinch you on your cheek! haha! Thank you!!!

Mun Yee- Was real sorry for the banner... hahs.. Really thank you for your encouragement. =) Without you, think our P.O.S would not make it.. haha. Your sacriface is really something great... I thank you so much for all you've done in P.O.S! =) Cheer up, broken Mun Yee! =)

Haha. think that's all lah! later blog too long lols. Everyone did great....VERY GREAT! We struggled alot sia! We quarrel... wept... tired... ALOT and ALOT lah! We were so broken!!! But in the end we didn't win.....sob...... But.... Whatever! P.O.S didn't win....South won!!! So whatever! Haha! Our sacrifaces are still made lah! haha! We had so so mch fun at the last day! We were singing those songs together.... It really rock big time!!

On the very day... Many things happened.... Many of us wept...... Many of us are hugging each other... hoping that nothing would go wrong on the day... I was very scared too! I was like hugging Sunthari countless of times! Can't control my emo-ness haha. Then when the count down starts.... everyone was like so excited.... kept on cheering and cheering!!! then suddenly people from the temasek and republic poly cluster started cheering....OLE OLE OLE OLE!!! Then we were all cheering that together!! LOL. Imagine that! The power of one...LOL! then when everything started.... Everyone was like...."REMEMBER THE STEPS!! must remember! must remember!!" Then Chloe panicked also lah... she's a flyer ma... Then I promised her.... "I will do the "hah" thing loudly okay!! You must cheer up!" lol. She very funny lah! The last few practices she keep on helping me say it.... Cause I was SOOOO emo at the time!! Then she gave me a petty frown lol! But whatever lah! When I shouted "hah".... everyone else's voice sound very girllish! LOL. I was dancing the guy step mah...HAIX!! Me so sad! Me and Sunthari have to do the guy dance....sob sob...haha But it's over liao lah haha!

Conclusion: S-O-U-T-H ROCKS!

Sorry...

2007-05-26T08:26:00.000-07:00

Sorry kai mei. I know I always leave you out... I'm so sorry... But don't worry! You have Hui Shan to accompany you right? I'm very sorry... Because I really do not want you to be humiliated but she will be unhappy right? Sorry Sorry Sorry. I'll try my best to help you bah. And to tell you the truth, I can't trust you because I had many bad experiences in the past. I'm so sorry about all of that. I always had that insecurity... I know I am very bad to doubt you.. But I'm very glad to have you as a friend that trustworthy! Because I'm always being betrayed... No matter how much I trusted someone... Like that girl from our class. (not in jiko clique) Really thank you lots for that... And I'm so sorry!!! I'm so sorry that I didn't try to help you get him. I'm so bad as a friend... lol....Kai mei, let go of him okay? It hurts us all,too,if you keep him..... Let go... We love you!!! =)

Hui Shan. If you want to be with Kai Mei. Then I'll let you. If you hate me that much and like her that much, I'll let you. If you want to prove me wrong, I might be happy to. Anything that you may want. I might give. After all, I'm tired of this already. You won. I'll celebrate for you. =) I am very sorry if ever dragged you into anything. I know I sound very innocent.. You can hate me for it. But don't drown on hatred... hatred kills... it's never good... You'll never get something good out of it. Well, are you happy with my post now? =) Hope you are!

I'm very sorry that I can't make you confide in me.. Be happy! You rock you rule!! You smiled even when people drag you down! One example is me! Yay! Be happy!!! You chio when you smile ok!! =) Of course Zoe also chio when she smile la! haha! I believe someday, you'll find something you've always wanted... I've been searching it too... LOVE that is... I know I may seem to be so happy... But to tell you the truth... I knew nothing... I've been trying my best to achieve it... But sometimes I got nothing. All you friends out there... Someday you'll definately.... And I mean really... you'll find the love you'll been searching for! Haha. I guess I found something... But there are so many things in my life that made me drawn so far from it.... I was so sad....

I BELIEVE EVERYONE WILL FIND THAT LOVE! AND I MEAN YES!!! =)) I KNOW I AM CRAZY! I'M FAT! I'M UGLY! BUT I DON'T WANT TO CARE CAUSE--- I KNOW THAT I CAN ACHIEVE THAT ANSWER!!!!!!!!!!!! =DDDDDDD EVERYONE CAN!!!! So, don't give up! Give up is like throwing away your last hope. I believe and I know.... that the light that everyone wanted would be there!
-PREVAIL-
-TO EVERYONE-

.....

2007-05-23T09:32:00.001-07:00

.................
My previous sounds very pathetic is it? So, I really can't post anything I want then?? So... I cannot be sad?

It's all up to you then. Not me?

Okay.... I got it. =)

...sob....

2007-05-19T08:28:00.000-07:00

I just don't know why but.....
Many people that I know in school are getting further from me.
I really don't know what to say.
I can't blog here to release my sadness.
People will be bu shuang even when it's my blog.
I can't go anywhere.
Got some people not happy with me.
I really feel like...
Going away from many people
But I can't
Feels like hell.
And I can't run.
Feels like dying...
But it's stupid...
What should I do????
If I ever had a chance to die I might be happy to...
But there are so many things in this world for me...
And yet sometimes, it seems so hard to live for those things.
Because there are so many things that are going against me.
Let me fade away ok?
Cause........................ even my friends are unhappy with me........ What should I do now? Am I really that evil? That even I tried to change myself. No, tried to become another me. And it is to no use. I tried to be a different person so that I can become more confident.... But it's like a waste because more people became unhappy with me. I don't wanna care anymore. Don't feel like persisting for them anymore.

Just.
Let me fade away.

OKAY!

2007-05-13T00:57:00.000-07:00

OKAY! I know! I very bad... not joining you kimi and momo... But seriously, I thought i dragged you people down somehow... So I don't want to do it any further... And then decided not to join bah.... Erm... this explaination reasonable??? Sorry, k? Momo and Kimi....

Anyways, exams was...
Maths- DIDN'T FINISH!!!
Science- er.... okay-okay la...( Don't worry Zozo, I know you can do it one!)
English- Better than last year, PHEW!
Mother tongue- Same as English
Home economics- I can take a breath...phew...
Geography- Can do it...I think? Hmmm.... Last question was suprisingly easiest... Was saved by the last question!!!
History- TERRIBLE!!!
Art- My worst subject-cum-nightmare. Was saved bah... I stayed till 4 am just to finish prep work!!! Haha... Didn't do very well for final...but managed to finish prep so....can relax la!( Momo... You prep and your final did well! hope all is well for you!)

Heard lots of rumours going around. Even rumours about me- I framed someone? Haix. ~~Rumours~~ ~~Gossip~~ Backstabbing is usual...VERY USUAL. Even between good friends also have....Not say my friends lah! Saying other people lah.... Got sad thing happen.... Haix.... Hmmmmm.... I know my class very funny one, don't be disappointed... Cause, other classes are also very funny de....Got class war de...

Want to know more? Ask your good friend from various classes and find out! Or log on to MSN to chat with your good friends! For more information, please contact 1900-188-whatisgoingon.
LOL! Okay,I'm going crazy over this... And oh ya, GUESS! GUESS the person who I am freaked out of! Okay, one more clue.... HMMMMMM!!!! He is from a very popular class. A class hor.... Got many people like their class people de...as in erm..... boy-girl interest kind of like lah! Get it? Get it? Of course, I may be saying about my class ma....haha! guess guess guess...

Got to go le..... here to satisfy some people's boredom lol... Byebye

exams ar.....

2007-05-03T20:24:00.000-07:00

Now it's exam period so....
Everyone jia you! Don't burn midnight oil like me.. Everytime do the exam until want to go and ZZZ.... And... Worst luck for your exams! MWHAHAHAHA! I'm Lady suei! Haha. Who is Lady Luck??? Hmm........
Anyways, got many people chio-chio in this world bah! Don't be upset even if you loose out quite alot! Everyone is special the way they are!
Everyone is smart the way they are too... So don't think your stupid in anyway.... Everyone is smart!=)

ZZZzzzZZZzzz....
Heard got some people who went to my blog and was unhappy with me...
What have I got to say... That is I know I may be evil or whatever it is to you... but this is my blog.... You wrote whatever you wanted... So I wrote whatever I wanted... what a blog is what a blog should be...LOL! =X I may be depicted as weird though.....

Haha. Expected of a clever person... she/he managed to guess who I'm freaked out of! haha. Luanne....slowly guess ar! =P hAnyway I got to go now...byebye!

Confessions....

2007-04-28T09:58:00.000-07:00

haix...
Don't know whether to be happy or to be sad..
You see, a friend of mine got hurt because of me..
I'm so.... bad? Should I say that?
I mean, she's totally innocent..... Everyone knew that... But.... I couldn't help her....
She got punished in the end.... I was so... helpless... And I really feel bad about it.....
Well.... She got out of it.... Yet....

I know I may sound dumb but....
(I decided to delete this part because I know it would cause alot of troubles.....)

Breathe in.
Breathe out.
Okays.... we are... Chio! Cute! Sexy! Smart!
All lah!! All!! haha!! Don't say yourself lah! We all lah! Together lah! Haha. Thinking of who is chio-est? I know!! It's Vel from 2/2! I'm correct....right? haha don't fight over being Miss/Mdm/Mrs Universe!

Join my music class!
Got Singing. Dancing. And Composing! All so musicilicious! So artistic! So join lar! haha
Oh ya, about the person I'm freaked out of........ Hmm..... People say his- handsome? funny? cute? Er.... but sorry hor....I thought of the opposite... haha! Weird taste perhaps? And... He know our school belle! OOOOOOoooooooooOOOOOO!!!!! Want Birthday presents? Easy!!! Just answer the person who I am freaked out of!! haha. But the longer you guess....... the cheaper the present! =P haha

Okays, I'm off.... Say goodbye to this weird girl here... No, I mean chio bu here! (joking one lar!)^_^ Ciao~

oops... sorry ar!

2007-04-20T00:18:00.002-07:00

Erm.... First thing comes first.....
Very sad....
VERY VERY SAD.....
Someone backstabbed me.... *sob*
Haixx! Why must backstab? Haix..... You know.... Backstab makes me hate someone....i mean literally.....Cause it...
1) Broke my trust....COMPLETELY
2) It will make me give you something you don't really like
I mean, what's the whole POINT in backstabbing? Will you gain the whole world like that? I bet not! Will you gain remputation? never! So why? And backstabbing is like betraying someone and really really draggin down that person...haix!! You know, I trust my cousin.... ALOT... yet that's what she did to me.... *sob*....

I'm sorry I'm sorry!!!
Jiko Clubbers.... I'm sorry!! I'm not saying one of you are UNKNOWN.... I only thought that UNKNOWN is probably someone I know.... So make it friendly to that UNKNOWN and that I'm not angry with that person.... Just very curious about who it is....

Take it ALL in......Take it ALL out......
Haha.... Ai Jia really made me think of camp haha. Our group had been through alot..... Like disagreements.......and fun! haha.... probably that's what made me like 2/1? haha. Oh ya, last week, my brother went for Ngee Ann poly's Orientation camp. He made me crazy about camp again.... haix.... That's why I got one of the most lasting effect for Camp Siao-ness.(A new sickness =P) Another thing.... hmm..... YA! I'm not going to update much from now on cause..... got exams and somemore.... my results VERY VERY VERY lousy! So, you can say I got punishment lah. haha. International F......................................................riendship day is fun!!! Cause we did many stuffs together..... really great day! And oh! The Commendation Day! =D

HMMM!!!! guess guess guess!!! Guess who is the one I'm freaked out of.... I will give you Bday presents!!! haha!! =x lol.... Hmm... That guy like a girl......!!! WHOOOO! From....hmm.....Secondary 2 level. LOL. =X ZoZo... don't tell anyone arh! HEHEHE! =) Slowly guess =))) And note that I'm a very sensitive person. So I made some people think that I'm weird... HAHA!!
Okays see you soon.... got to go now.... hope that I can see you again....bye!!
P.S. Sorry Luanne and Ai Jia for troubling you people.... didn't know that I could go online today..... SORRYYYYY!!!!!!

Easter bunnies!!

2007-04-08T07:01:00.000-07:00

LOL! The Drama was great!! So sad... None of my friends went... haha.
Anyways, me, found out something... Was kind of... erm...Sad for everyone... Oh ya, Zoe lucky to have ML! But ML not wooing Zoe... abit ker xi... haha... (ahh.... no offense!)Hui Shan...Me not Hong Xiang arh!! Anyway, thanks for the spam! =)Hmm.... Kai Mei and Jona... Hope he won't irritate you to the roof! Lynn ar... You rock! You rule! =) Oh, about the sad thingy? Can I say it, friends? Hope not! Cause its VERY very..... okays erm.... Lets say, if I hate et.... What will I feel... hmm................Anyways, hope everyone's love life is great around here... HEEHEE! I know, I'm getting hua chi... But, tell me if i go overboard... I don't want to be like that!! >_<

Okays,I know my update very slow... But no lar, my mother don't allow... That's why!haha. Oh ya, Luanne, tag at my board!! =) I won't kill you de! =) Oh ya, whose that mysterious UNKNOWN? Hmmm!!! Is it Kimi? ZoZo? Momo? Or... Ling? Aiya, can't be bah.... HAHA!! Anyways, CA is my friend... So erm, don't harass her!

LOL! that guy... that guy who freaked me out.... Guess leh! Guess who!! ^_^ haha! Still no one guess... lol! That guy who freaked me out got stead before! O_o lol! I love his stead a lot... She very nice to me! T_T ZoZo= Pure babe. Momo= Cute babe. Kimi= Sexy babe. Ling= Pretty babe. Lynn= Chio babe. Tricia= Sweet babe. Me ar? Dunno! haha! You want me to call you babe? Okays! tell me your 4-lettered nick name! And I will give you the -babe! =D Simple, easy, don't like? Tell me! =)(Ling, Lynn and Tricia is not Jiko clubber.)

Okays, me off le, people out there, you rock okay!Oh ya, Mama, Cheer up okay! =) You rock, you rule! `smile! =DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD Your great! Your strong! =).....See you blog!!! bye!

ME: You know eric?
(someone-youknow): ya.
ME: Heard he looked like you.
(someone-youknow): Same here.
ME: And more good-looking than you.
(someone-youknow): I resent tat.
(LOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HAHA! LAUGH LIKE SIAO!)

Aftermath...@_@

2007-04-01T04:44:00.000-07:00

Everybody dance now!! ~Bom-Cha-Bom~ 洗刷刷！洗刷刷!!
Can't get over it!! I can't get over it!!
Mushroom oie----- BOINK!!! Then everyone have to jump...lol!
Okays... get over with camp already!!
Okays......................... School life rocks.....................
Not really..... But yeah, put a positive mindset into yourself----- you will love school soon! Hey,that reminds me of kai mei, when she keeps saying: I know you love school, 'cause you love me. kai mei!!! Not everyone is crazy over you! Not! Only got one! I think... Not she or me ar... mind you...! =X
So... I'm kind of confused as to join Cui Ling or not... 'cause Cui Ling's been very nice to me. Like, how are you suppose to turn down someone who is nice to you? haha.
And about E.T. :Okkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk! I admit, I like the instructors... And Wen Jie.... And Shalon.... And Jesselyn... And Timothy... And Serena.... And E.T. And Chief Veron,etc.(Dunno why I suddenly want to talk about them again.) Anyways, I have heard that someone like a friend of mine. Not confirmed... But yah, nice right? haha.
Nowadays got so many tests.... Sian... Tests not good... Camp good....!! =)
I've put a new song into my blog!!! Known as GLAMOROUS. By Fergie again.It's about Fergie's life, mostly. Nice, really nice, nicer than big girls don't cry! =)
Okays gotta go... I know i know, we blogging very early... I know =) Early birds have good bugs to eat! =D

Oh, about that guy who freaked me out, he seems to be real famous. Keep reading to know who is the person I'm freaked out of! =D
And yup! I'm a gossip box! Though I don't know everyone's but... heard some new ones.... HEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHE!!!
Oh ya, Kai Mei, Hui Shan, elmo is officially ZoZo, okays?

C-A-M-P-F-I-R-E-S-O-N-G

2007-03-30T19:16:00.000-07:00

YAY!!! CAMP!!!
okays... anyways...need credit for camp.....
Hmmm.......thanks goes to Hafizah and Sheri.... Being great as a representative of our group!And Fizah the best girlll......Whoooo.....!!! Ryzel the best boy...O_O!
And Cui Ling.... For fanning me when we were sleeping...and being able to tolerate me when i keep gripping onto her....=X
And Ai Jia, Michelle, Tonasa(dunno how to spell her name!=X), Pei Hui, Hafizah, Zi Ya, and another Indian girl (dunno how to spell her name also).... Everyone in the group for making this camp possible for everyone....(Dunno what am I trying to say...)
And Pui Yi....For helping me.....in shower!
And all the other people for being sooooo funny and nice as usual.....
And... THANKS TO ALL THE GREAT INSTRUCTORS FOR MAKING THIS CAMP ROCK!
LOL...
And Zoe....Sorry if i offended you in anyway....Sorry sorry sorry!! And... your great in the camp!

Camp day 1 nothing much bah.... just that Ming Loon was the one being kidnapped....And he say it's shuang there.... hey! i wanna try too! =X joking! Tricia was being kidnapped also... wow... She's really bravo... Dunno why I said that.. =X

Camp day 2 was the best! Our item was the wave thingy.... the start was lame... I know...But was fun ok! Imagine your anyone of us...LOL! We and group 15 special... We didn't dance! 15 got dance lah... but 15 got skid right...so still very te bie! Our group stuggled like siao... Cause 2nd day then think out of something mah.... other people 1st day do le... haha... And Really love Wen Jie and Shalon... Very funny funny people. Correct! Really miss them... Correct! They did many good things for us.... Correct! Anyway... my group was suei...cause didn't do flying fox... Flying fox was what I wanted to do! But didn't go for high elements... =X shh.... The low elements okays lah... Just that we really squeezed ourselves out... LOL!And Campfire its a rock....and we rule......All of us very high.... like we on alcohol leash lol =X And got Doo-dah!!! YAY!!! Got the bumble bee... the campfire song~ wow! and my favourite: 大家一起来呀！！ Bom cha bom!

Camp day 3 was....okays! Cause got lots of nice nice songs! And our exercise sounds more like a dance lol! Our cleaning was easiest... Low elements area! haha! Ai Jia, Kevin (Andrew), and me helped Ms Ng... And got marshmallows!! Weeeeeee~ Though very plain lah... but better than nothing right? heh heh!

Okays erm... sorry CA...Really sorry...CA you rock too.... And...I found someone who freaked me out in the camp... Was shocked when I found out that many people like him...Ironic isn't it?

Me got to go now... CAMP IS ROCK,CAMP IS RULE!!! YAY! haha!
Oh ya, thank you Lynn and Tricia and Cherlyen for being there for me in times... forget to give you all credits =X Thank you people lots! Lots goes to you! =)

okays....?

2007-03-24T07:23:00.000-07:00

Looks like I can't really do that le.... Can't.....

Anyway I guess my blog has been giving one-sided views?It's not the whole thing.... So don't side me......haix.....

Life is getting.... weird? Some things are good... Some are not... Haha... Felt like... escaping... from reality..... I really got to thank people but.... haix........ Anyway.... thank you SO SO SO much u ppl out there...... though I know how manipulative I sound.... Still gotta thank you people out there.... If not I would not become who I am.... =) THANK YOU!!!!!!

And yup....setbacks for life ain't it? I know I am definately wrong but... haix.... okays.... My both people who came to my blog..... Sorry..... for being so conceited.... Sorry for not considering ur feelings.... Sorry Mostly to you.... That I made u disgraced.... made you unable to face people..... sorry...................... I'm know how evil I am................ To use your name and all.................. So sorry........................ well hope your studies is going well.............. Anyway shine and be strong...................... Don't be like me.................... So mean and evil.................haha.

Anyways... about Luanne? Somebody told her about something... She thought I was right.... So.... "fight" for me.... like I said.... I appreciate her fighting spirit..... but she shouldn't do that,I know...... And as expected.... what she did really made them angry..... That's why the more I should say thank you.... Cause she knew it would happened.... yet she fought..... That's all....

If any of you had doubts... don't ask me ok! Ask them.... don't ask me... Like I correct. But no larr... im not....... So don't...... Okays.... I know how weird i'm getting at..... got to go now.... bye blog! =)

Finally....

2007-03-19T01:18:00.000-07:00

First! I've got to thank people! Thank Zoe for being there for me even when her good friends hate me..... Thank CA for hearing to my problems,being there for me and understanding me! =)) Thank Luanne for "fighting" for me....though she cannot "win"....lol! =X And Thank other people like Cui Ling, Yu Hsin, etc, for accompanying me.... lol! Really great people.... They are really great people! Keep shining and smiling!!! =)

I was happy today! Though in school.... Felt very sian lah.... but never mind! Cause I was enlightened! =D By a game, surprisingly. It was, as usual, Phoenix Wright Ace Attorney. It's about this girl.... with a co-dependency problem.... And could not depend on herself to live. She could not find out who she really was. Until the attorney( the main character), and the prosecutor starts to fight for her. (She was partially suspected by the way.) Then she started to find out who she really was. Even though she's weak...... And she wasn't such a cheerful person.... But because of them, she smiled!! As I play.... I felt that I'm like her also.... Don't really know who I really am..... And ended up depending on other people to give me that security.... And harmed other people instead..... But in the end.... Today....I was able to find out who I am!!! Yays! I hope I will hold on to who I am.... Like what CA said.... To be like who I am and not who I am not.....

I was actually sad....because of some problems in school....and in CH......but that was all okay.... Cause It's okay if people hate for who I am.... At least, I don't have to be liked for someone I am not! =)

Really got to thank all those great people out there.... Special credits to Zoe and CA! =) I've got to go now....ZZzzZZ.... Very tired! See you blog!

haix....

2007-03-18T02:33:00.000-07:00

felt so torned today.. i don't get it at all.... i'm trying my best already.... I know you people out there really detest that part of me.... Over-sensitive? Well... If you hate that part of me... I'm sorry to tell you but if I ever ever take that part away... You will see another me. My friends... Both got angry with me because of that. Its just that they didn't realise it. I just don't get it straight. One says I'm too sensitive to one. Another says I'm too insensitive to her. Cause I had enough already. I know I'm extremely sensitive but. I'm trying to change...... I'm trying to..... very hard already.... And i'm talking about last time.... really not now.............. If u all given up on me already. Then there's really nothing I can do. Cause I really done my best. In changing..................... to another me.............. i'm trying sooo hard...... that I don't even know if that's me or not.. I don't feel like caring about it anymore............................... cause I'm at my last................... Don't ever force me anymore... If u want to turn me to counselling hs..... then do it. I really can't stand it....................................anymore.......!!

My element......my days.....

2007-03-16T07:18:00.000-07:00

Haha....went to took a test hui shan took....(sorry for copyrighting =P.) Web:
http://www.quizilla.com/users/LisTigre/quizzes/ Check it out!!! And tell me if you want! =)))) okays and.....mine is.........."You are Silver! A very ancient element, you have been sought-after by man since before the Egyptians. You are a very moldable element, which means you get alone well with all kinds of people. Your name, "Argentum" is the Latin word for silver. Unfortunatly, you are easily mistaken for a mineral that is dull and unattractive, and you need someone who can see the legendary value inside of you. Just remember that you indeed have beauty inside, and this is what will get you through anything."
They don't have image....so ker xi!!! haha.....

Today was kinda sad....... Cause I was thinking...... Why did I do so many good things for my friend for...... I sacriface my face for her leh!!! Cause she seemed kinda sad by the fact that he avoid her at times. She and him are friends. Yet he treat her that way........ So felt kind of angry.... Why so bad to her when she did nothing wrong...... So ask him why....... Before that..... We did something kind of bad to him lar....... So my friend told me not to sms him back. But that thought came into my mind.......so i asked. Later, I told my friend. She got furious with me. In a BIG way! she was like "wth-ing"....."wtf-ing"......."shitting"........ And was calling me lame....... And most of all.....she's afraid that he might find out something....(Can't say out lah....She will hate me forever for it!!) Then I was like, it didn't mean that way! The way I talk was definately NOT obvious! ITS NOT EVEN CLOSE! And yet she's that angry.....until she rejected my sms........... Heck care me in MSN. (or skarly she blocked...) I WAS LIKE : WHAT THE....?!?!?!?! FOR A GUY!!!!! mind you....It was a GUY! And I sacriface a lot lah! Now he'll think that I was the one who did the bad thing.... HAIX!..... don't care her lah....

Enlighten me friends!!! ='( What is so wrong....about.......me.....................
Got to go.........don't get sad because of me......................................bye

Haix.....results....

2007-03-14T08:40:00.000-07:00

Sad to say.....Sad to know......My results!!!! It's so so so terrible!!! ahhhh!!! Got 2 fails.........My mum arh......starting to prosecute me le...haix.....can't play DS.....Ace attourney(a extremely fun to play DS game!!)......I want to go to court!!

Speaking about Ace Attourney....I dreamed about three guys......(from 2/1 de.....strange....I don't really know them.....)They did something bad in New Town. Very bad. And I'm the Prosecutor of them!!! Which means.....I will try to send them a death sentence!!! OMG!!! That's terrible! I don't really know them but.....It isn't nice to see people,whom you have seen before, goes to court and receives a death sentence right? Haix.... Bad days carries bad dreams....

Haix......Do housework....Do homework.......Play a little bit only...... Life is getting like a bore..... But great things is- I can still go out! Phew! Well, Charis I hope you can go out soon too! The worse things I knew was what happened to my good friend..... Sad for her.....haix....... The least I could do is to give her is my voucher received from maths trial. Well,hope life is a brighter day for her!!! =)

Got to go.....mum's nagging me out of the chair.See you soon!!

Charis.....

2007-03-01T23:04:00.000-08:00

Thank you for your help!!! Doubly!!! Thank you very very very very very very very very.....oh no i mean..............."Si Bei" thank you lehs!!!!! =) Hui Shan...... Sorry to trouble you in wanting you to help me with the blog....... well thanks for your sincerity!!! It's very much appreciated.....by me! =)

me back le!!!yay!!!

2007-02-01T05:18:00.000-08:00

Yo peoplez! I know lah...I dead then suddenly resurrected... very funny hor... Well,don't care lah! Can come back I happy liao! =) Anyway,I'm very glad that there are people who cared for me and my blog even though I'm not around... Thank you so so much! I know I wrote a lot of negative comments at my blog last time... But do not take it hard okay? Because it's just a stressed-girl-want- to-shout-it-all-out thingy. Don't be worried for me. I'm fine! Won't die... haha...

Well... What's happening in my life you say? Many. Many things- Gossip. Hate-u-hate-her thing. Misunderstandings. Homework. Church probs. And most of all..........I'M STRESSED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Backstabs are as usual...but don't need to be like that mah...Why say bad things about people? Will get what lehs? Say good thing about people, people would not only like you, but would also have peace and harmony between people. Better right? So what's the point of backstab? nothing. just nothing. So all you viewers out there.... You can comment about people... But don't say bad things.... very hurting and sad de... You won't want them on you,I suppose? Haha...

So fast need to go liao....haix.... See you some other time (my blog lah...not you...haha joking!)

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